About a year ago, I lost one of my closest friends. We got into an argument over something trivial, but apparently it was a squabble large enough to merit us not talking to each other for months. The strange thing was that I wasn’t morose at all. In my mind, he wasn’t worth keeping around if our friendship was so volatile that a stupid disagreement could have set us on our separate ways.
I continued on with life.
I haven’t actually seen him since the beginning of this semester. We bumped into each other accidentally and ended up having a nice conversation. We talked about school, video games, and whatever – just like old times. Before we went off to wherever it was that we were going, I said, “Hey, we should hang out sometime.”
I figured that the reason we stopped being friends was stupid anyways, and that enough time had passed that it couldn’t have been that big of a deal anymore. I was wrong. After I asked him if he wanted to hang out again, his response was, “No, I don’t think so.”
Ouch. That hurt, a lot. I felt really cruddy after that. In fact, I still feel cruddy. I didn’t know how much I missed hanging out with him until we had that conversation. And now I realize that nothing is worth losing your best friend over.
That can be tough. All one can do it put themselves out there and hope is be accepted. If not, then live, learn and hope that someone else is willing to reciprocate. Not everyone will and thats ok. The fact that you have been able to feel the feeling that you did is significant as well.
ReplyDeleteYou are right. There is no reason to dwell, I put myself out there and was sadly denied, there's not much else I can do now. There will be many more people that I meet in life, it's just sad to think that I have one less person to share my endeavors with
ReplyDeleteI went through a similar experience this past year. It was ground shattering. But I don't regret it. It led me to come to the conclusion that renewable happiness is internal.
ReplyDeletePS this has nothing to do with the post, but I must tell you, you've always reminded me of a combination of Dumas's Athos and Wodehouse's Jeeves.
What a coincidence, I was actually just talking about Athos and the three musketeers this past weekend. However, I'm afraid that I am unfamiliar with Jeeves =\
ReplyDeleteOut of curiosity, is it just my blog posts that remind you of those characters? Or do we know each other in real life?
How odd! Ahh, you are missing out, Wodehouse is hilarious. Jeeves is a compliment, very dapper and intelligent.
ReplyDeleteWe have had the good fortune to become aquaintances in real life, yes.
Hmm, I'll have to look into it, seems like my kinda guy, haha
ReplyDeleteWho are you?
Good question, I've been trying to figure that out for some time.
ReplyDeletehaha, all existentialism aside, I'm curious for a name
ReplyDeletenot to play games, but i have many, none of which i desire to divulge.
ReplyDeletewho do you think i am?
Would you tell me even if I guessed correctly?
ReplyDeletesure
ReplyDeletegive me a hint
ReplyDeletei smell like a blend between coconut-lime and outside most of the time
ReplyDeletehmm... Do I know you from college? Work? Or somewhere else?
ReplyDeleteI'm afraid I have no idea, anymore hints?
ReplyDeleteonly if you have more inquiries
ReplyDeleteWhat's your hometown?
ReplyDeletea dead give away. im the only one from it who goes to bing.
ReplyDeleteWhat community in Bing do you live in?
ReplyDeletethe best one :)
ReplyDeleteciw
Caitlyn? If not, my next question is are you an RA?
ReplyDeletenope squared
ReplyDeletehow did we meet
ReplyDeletethrough friends. contact me if you figure it out!
ReplyDeletewhat's your major
ReplyDeletei'm not one of those som squares i'll tell ya that much :p
ReplyDeleteI should probably be able to figure this out by now >.<
ReplyDeletewhat year are you
nahhh. not to be a rumplestiltskin, but i doubt you'll get it. i mean, i wouldn't guess i was myself from the clues you have been given, if that makes sense? and im not sure what year i count as due to extenuating circumstances.
ReplyDeletemessage me on fb?
ReplyDeletewhat were you for halloween?
ReplyDeletea few different things.
ReplyDeleteim 5 5 and 3/4 when i slouch (which is pretty much never)
ReplyDeleteI still have no idea
ReplyDeleteHow long have we known each other
not much longer probably and unfortunately.
ReplyDeletewon't be in bing this sem.
with any luck, i'll be in india.
i am scared though.