This semester has been stressful for me so far, but not because of classes. I'm stressed because it's time for me to start looking for internships for the summer, which will have a direct impact on me getting a job after I graduate. The stakes are high, to say the least, and I've been in a worrisome state for the past week or so.
Today however, my mentality changed.
I ended up going to a program meant to train people in how to prepare for a job fair, and after the program was over, I found that I had an exuberant amount of confidence. Actually, the level of confidence I presently hold, borderlines on uncanny.
This actually doesn't surprise me, as similar things have happened before. I don't know how to explain it exactly, but it's like my mind always rises to the occasion whenever I'm presented with a big dilemma in regards to performance. Right now, nothing can impede me on my overall goal; I feel insurmountable. It feels amazing to be honest with you. Have you ever felt like you were larger than life?
Another time this happened to me was back in High School. It was time to take the SATs, and that year was the first year that they decided to implement a writing section into the test. I remember thinking at that time, before I took the test, that I was going to fucking demolish that essay, regardless of what the topic was. I could just feel it inside me, the boundless potential to succeed. No matter what that test threw at me, I was going to scoff at it. And that's exactly what happened. I aced that essay, easily. No big D.
So I think I already figured out why I have these bouts of incredible confidence. I psych myself up. Whenever I'm presented with a large feat, failure no longer becomes an option, it's eliminated from my vocabulary, and it becomes entirely non-existent. It's as if I can do no wrong. Without the presence of failure in the back of my mind, I can't actually fail. Everything becomes a cake walk.
What I find interesting, is that when I use the F-word in my thoughts, it amplifies my confidence a lot. This is peculiar to me, because I don't like dropping the F-bomb left and right. I usually find it unnecessarily vulgar and immature, and while I do end up using it in my everyday speech, in reality, I never feel like I need to use it, and I don't honestly like it. Regardless of that however, it is quite the powerful word.
I find that when I use it in my thoughts, it just pumps me up. Today, for example, upon leaving the job fair training program, I said in my head, "I'm going to fucking own the job fair."
And I will.
What psyches you up?
The catch is that you can't use the typical answer that your friends psych you up. How do you psych yourself up?
Stay frosty.
P.S. Kudos for anyone who gets the reference in the title of the post.
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